belief.

It's been awhile since I've felt inspiration. True, honest to god, pure inspiration. It comes and goes in waves, as I'm sure many people would agree. When you're looking for it, it never comes and when you're too busy to even consider the thought - it strikes. It always does. It's inevitable.

I've been inspired by, multiple things these past weeks and I think I'm at the point where I actually feel safe saying it out loud without fear that by me doing so will jinx it, thus leaving it as just a fleeting moment in the ever revolving door of life. Not only am I being inspired, but I'm actually EXCITED about this "project" (if I want to call it that) and can't wait to work on it. While I don't feel comfortable completely indulging all the details that it includes, it's going to be good. I think. No, I know. Once it gets past the pre-planning and planning and putting together and hours of work that I think it'll take to get up and running - this will be something that's good. No, great. Not only because I believe in it so much, but I believe in everything involving it. I don't know if I can say that enough.

It feels nice to be included in this, to be brought in from the beginning. To be picked (out of sheer convenience even) by a person and have them tell you "I want this and I want you to be the person to help me make this happen." Like all projects seen through from the beginning - it feels like a baby. One that I know when all the work is said and done, I will be proud of. I don't (or, really try hard not to) do things half-assed because, quite frankly, I like to make people happy. Knowing that someone trusts me enough, believes in me enough to think that I can do this, just warms me to my soul. Plus, everyone knows that I DO NOT LIKE to disappoint. Scratch that, I can't disappoint. Not when I believe in the project so much. When the time comes down to it and the weight is on my shoulders, I can take it. I'll be that person for you, always. No question.

It's good to have a little hope again. To be renewed. To be EXCITED - knowing full well what lies ahead. It'll all pay off and be more than worth it. Not even so much for me, but for the person behind it all. Who I believe in more than anything. Who believes in me, and together, I truly believe that we can make this happen.

I can't wait.