you were never supposed to leave, now my head is splitting at the seams

Maybe it's just me being completely oblivious (probably true), or the fact that I just have way too much music (absolutely true, if there is such a thing) but I get on these kicks where I stumble upon the musical gems that just so happen to already be on my iPod. Something always triggers it, and then I'm thrown into this musical bliss only to realize that WELL, HELLO SELF. YOU'VE HAD THIS ALBUM IN YOUR POSSESSION FOR MONTHS NOW, AREN'T YOU JUST SO SMART.

My inner self is just as sarcastic and nice as my actual self. I rule!

Case in point: Mumford & Sons

I've had that album for I don't even know how long and then one glorious day, it comes on randomly and kicks me right in the nuts (hypothetically, of course). After the initial reaction of picking my jaw up off the floor and stuffing my heart back in my chest, I realized what I'd been missing. But somehow, the whole discography has been sitting there for months? Weird.

I go off on these "I-need-new-music" sprees, gather recommendations, download (legally, of course), put them on my iPod and then... they get lost and forgotten amongst the thousands (yes, thousands) of songs I already have. But then it all comes back to me when I'm having one of those days then that one song just finds me and soothes something in my soul. Realizing then that I already have more of that artist without even knowing it, feels like I just won the musical jackpot.

I have to lean towards the thinking that in someway, somehow my mind knows that I'll hear that song at one point and I'll need it. I'll need that instant calming and soothing and when I do, the rest will already be there. So basically, not only does my sober self take care of my drunk self, my present self takes care of my future self. Emotionally anyway.

My god, I'm such a catch.

Anyway, TANGENT. Second case in point: Radical Face.

I was introduced via Ryan from Pacing the Panic Room when he shared quite possibly the most perfect wedding video I've ever seen IN MY LIFE. Seriously, watch that and try not to cry.



Moving on, and to make a long story short. Saw the video. Became enamored with the song he used called "Welcome Home". I downloaded, I binged, I forgot. I forgot until last night when I happened to see that Radical Face just released a new EP, so I grabbed my iPod, scrolled to the R's and saw that low and behold, there he was. Already there, and waiting for me to hit Play. I sat back, put this song on and then... almost instantly succumbed to the calm feeling I remember having the first time I heard it, months ago. The tranquility, the peace, the stillness in my soul that I've been relentlessly searching for these past few weeks.

I don't know if it's because I'm just always an emotional basketcase or if it's the fact that my trip is so near (less than 3 weeks) but this song. This song. Oh, this song. It's everything that I need to hear right now. Everything and then some.

Things always have a way of finding their way back to you when you need them, I honestly believe that. I have to. And when things like this happen, it only makes me believe more.