as we drink our wine and let the world fade away

I'm currently struggling with a serious (and I mean, for SRS) case of the Februaries.

Though I may have to think of a new name because it technically is March now, I'm still calling it that because it actually began last week when it was February.

Regardless, things are just really low. I'm tired and bummed out and just completely over everything right now. I'm trying to shake it, but it seems impossible. I don't have the motivation to do much of anything. I have a feeling the weather recently is partly to blame (rain-sun-rain-sun-rain) but that can only be used for so long. I'm lacking inspiration, and I don't know where to find it. I need to focus my time on more productive things, and I think that once I figure something out - these dreary blues will hit the road.

Until then, I'm stuck wanting to do nothing but sleep and cry, listen to music and cry, watch movies and cry, etc. Oh and surf the ~interwebz~ for design inspiration for my room then cry about it when I find stuff that I love but can't afford. That's just irritating.